Kristen

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knw10126@hotmail.com — Wed, 28 Aug 2002 19:14:53 GMT

well i have a new roommate living with me and my mom. its my best friend kim. i was so freakin' excited to have her move in because she lived somewhat far away, and i didn't get to see her all that much. now that she's here i'm not sure that i want her here! lol. we are both on the bossy side, and when two people are bossy they shouldn't be together all the time. she is only supposed to stay for about a month or month and a half because my sister and her kids are moving in to save money so they can move to TN. i'm not sure how i'm gonna tell kim that she has to move out when its time. she has her boyfriend here all the time, and so now its hard for me to lay around in my pj's and underwear, and i love doing that! lol. oh well, i just hope everything goes well and fast. i hope we're still friends after this!

hey

knw10126@hotmail.com — Sat, 17 Aug 2002 15:11:14 GMT

its been a long time since i've updated this thing. not too much has really been going on. just tryig to get thing together in my life, trying to stay off the net a little more and do "real" stuff whatever that really happens to be. i'm doing better i think, so its all good. its been a while since i've talked to anyone here, so i hope everyone is doing well. =) there's no new love in my life, just trying to stay single and do what i wanna do and see what happens i guess. that's all for now, just letting you now i'm still with the living! ;)

knw10126@hotmail.com — Sat, 06 Jul 2002 20:28:15 GMT

I don't know what's been going on with me lately. I haven't really talked to anyone. I don't seem to talk to anyone online anymore except for family. I feel that if I tried to that I'd be imposing or something. No one seems to talk to me, so I don't wanna bother with anyone. I did talk to one of you that seemed to help me out a little bit, and that made me happy because I hadn't talked to them in a while. I just have felt really lonely more so now then any other time in my life. I feel like I am just in the way of everyone. I feel like I'm just trouble that people have to deal with and that it would be easier if I was out of the way. I dunno what to do sometimes. I just feel like crying half of the time. And I really do feel that things aren't gonna get any better. That's not really positive thinking and I know I should think positive.. but when nothing positive has happened in so long you kinda think that nothing is ever gonna get any better. I pray that it does though. Well, that's about it for now.

knw10126@hotmail.com — Sun, 30 Jun 2002 02:50:55 GMT

Thank goodness for the internet. I rarely ever talked to my half brother because he lives in Idaho, and I've only met him 2 times. But since he has gotten the internet we have become a lot closer. Soon I believe we'll be calling each other. It seems so weird to have a brother. It used to be just me and my sister. Now, I just need my other half brother to start getting online more offen.. its an easy way to break the ice instead of the phone and not sure what to talk about and just listening to each other breathe, in which that's what normally happens when on the phone. Anyway, I just needed to get that out.

:D

knw10126@hotmail.com — Wed, 26 Jun 2002 16:25:02 GMT

I been away a while, but now I am back. Just was saying hello! :)

hmmmm

knw10126@hotmail.com — Fri, 31 May 2002 15:28:39 GMT

I just go up, but I actully feel quite good today. I pray that it lasts all day and isn't just a little while thing.

knw10126@hotmail.com — Sun, 26 May 2002 20:12:46 GMT

i haven't felt this bad in a long time.

knw10126@hotmail.com — Fri, 24 May 2002 00:03:41 GMT

today is a sucky ass day!
david is home, and i'm sick. :/

knw10126@hotmail.com — Wed, 15 May 2002 04:58:54 GMT

Forgot something....

My room smells, and I dunno why! :/

Ahh

knw10126@hotmail.com — Wed, 15 May 2002 04:56:22 GMT

Another day is over and it was a pretty damn good one :)
er.. well, now yesterday! :)~

knw10126@hotmail.com — Mon, 13 May 2002 18:40:24 GMT

OMG.. My mom is gonna drive me insane!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

knw10126@hotmail.com — Fri, 10 May 2002 21:14:08 GMT

I have good days and bad days....
Today was deffinately a bad day. :(

knw10126@hotmail.com — Wed, 08 May 2002 21:06:57 GMT

i dont even know where to begin. i so wish i could change places with any of you. i have it so hard. from what you know of me, youre probably thinking yeah right, but its true. i so wish i had your problems times 10.. rather then mine. and due to this reason, i dont go to school, nor am i able to work at the moment. i cant be a regular 20 year old like everyone else and it sucks. tis the reason i haven't met some of you. but, hopefully i will be able to sometime. its really hard for me to talk about this because i never talk about to anyone excepyt my closest friends at home and of course my family. i could hid this easily before, but up to about a year ago or so i couldnt anymore. sooner or later ill probably tell you what it is. but for now, i just want you to all know that you have no idea how good you have it. i would give anything to switch places with you. well anyways.. i just needed to get this out because i was tired of keeping it in. thats all for now. =o/

knw10126@hotmail.com — Mon, 06 May 2002 20:27:43 GMT

why do i have to be the type that cannot keep secrets to save my life?

i barely can keep my own. its so easy to get stuff out of me.

i have a couple, and i'm about to splurge 'em. :(

knw10126@hotmail.com — Tue, 23 Apr 2002 18:39:58 GMT

Today is just a blah day. Haven't been able to talk to David for awhile. He's doing some kind of traing right now.. that sucks! :(

Anyways.. someone here is a lil pervie!! lmfao!!

knw10126@hotmail.com — Fri, 19 Apr 2002 15:59:14 GMT

well i haven't written in my journal in a long time, i guess my life is just all blahh and not a bit interesting? anyways, i'm still talking to the army guy almost everyday. he tells me that he loves me and that he's serious, i dunno what i'm supposed to do. i'm half awake due to the fact i was on the phone with him till 3. bahh, oh well life goes on i suppose. :/

knw10126@hotmail.com — Sun, 07 Apr 2002 20:04:44 GMT

I been in a pretty good mood lately. I talked to David (the guy in the army) for a long time last night. I'm really starting to like him a lot. He told me that I was his girlfriend and that he loved me. He was just kidding around but it sounded pretty damn good to me! :) I am so undecided about what to do. I am considering to go for it since he's only about 5 hours away, and I could probably see him about every weekend. I dunno... we'll see.
It seems like I never talk to any of my friends on the net anymore. None of them seem to be on as much. I'm trying not to be. But I miss talking to everyone. There is a certain someone that I talked to a whole bunch, but hardly ever now. Ahh well.. as long as they are happy with what they're doing. :) Well that's about all I got fer now. . . .

knw10126@hotmail.com — Wed, 03 Apr 2002 18:46:37 GMT

I am feeling a lot better today. :)

My new babies:

They are cock-a-poos! One week old.

knw10126@hotmail.com — Tue, 02 Apr 2002 22:29:19 GMT

i don't know why i'm so sad today. i don't think i've ever cried this much in a long time. i can't stop. i don't know what's with me! i just feel so empty and useless. i feel like i have no one to talk to. my friends are never home or seem to busy to talk to me. i haven't talked to any of them in a few days. why do i have to be the way i am? why did god make ME this way? i wish i knew what my purpose was.. then maybe i'd have something to look forward to, or know i'm important for something. i layed in bed all day, and haven't even ate anything. i don't feel hungry. i just wanna lay and cry.

knw10126@hotmail.com — Sun, 31 Mar 2002 19:16:46 GMT

happy easter!!!
i am sitting here dreading to get ready. i hate getting ready, but i have to because my family will be here soon. think i should shave my head so it'd be easier!!
anyways... so there is this guy i have been talking to for a little bit now. :) though he is in the army, and i hate that. he's here for the long easter weekend, but then monday he goes back to kentucky where he's based at. i have known him for about a year, and we "talked" a little before he left, and i said that i didn't wanna make anything of it becasue he wouldn't be here. so i've seen him since he's been here and i am so loving the male attention.. i'm now thinkin that he's only in kentucky, and he can come home on weekends, and i can go there whenever i want. but still.. long distant crap usually never ever works. :( i've done it once, and it was pretty pointless to me. if i'm with someone.. i wanna be "with" them.. not far apart. i just can't do that. i dunno what the hell to do. i don't know how you people on here do it.. and you're a lot more far away, and see them less???
well.. there's mah entry!

knw10126@hotmail.com — Fri, 29 Mar 2002 02:45:54 GMT

Sigh......... In need of a male right now!!!!!!!!!!!

SCREAMS

knw10126@hotmail.com — Tue, 26 Mar 2002 17:43:46 GMT

So I haven't wrote in my journal lately because my life sucks ass and I haven't much to say. I need more excitment in my life before I seriously go insane!!!!! Maybe I need to move out or something.. anyone wanna take me in? ;) Well that's my entry fer today. :/

knw10126@hotmail.com — Fri, 22 Mar 2002 04:17:41 GMT

Just thinking-

sometimes i lie awake,
and think of how things could be.
why am i like this for god's sake.

sometimes i lie awake,
and think of how good i have it..
but then again,
it sure doesn't feel like it,
not even at all.. not even one bit.

at night before i fall asleep,
i sometimes feel like i could cry,
because there is something i crave..
i crave it real deep.

i'm not quite sure what that something is,
or what it could be.
all i know to do, is to wait, to hope
and believe.

when it shows its face and true colors..
i'm sure i'll be quite satisfied.
and i pray that whoever reads this,
will have replied..

'cause i'm not sure what it is
i'm needing...
but maybe they know,
Maybe... Just thinking.

~kristen

knw10126@hotmail.com — Thu, 21 Mar 2002 17:40:44 GMT

01. Fallen for your best friend?: yeah
02. Made out w/ JUST a friend?: no
03. Been rejected?: yup
04. Been in love?: once
05. Been in lust?: think so
06. Used someone?: yeah.. oops
07. Been used? yeah
08. Cheated on someone?: no!
09. Been cheated on?: not that i know of
10. Been kissed?: Yes
11. Done something you regret?: yeah

Who was the last person...
12. You touched? my niece
13. You talked to? my mom
14. You hugged? my niece
15. You instant messaged? brandon
16. You kissed? mikey (not simple :))
17. You had sex with? gee..
18. You yelled at? my sister
19. You laughed with? my sister.. lol
21. Who broke your heart? MIKEY

Do you...
22. Colour your hair? yeah
23. Have tattoos? no, but i want ome
24. Piercings? my ears.. 5
25. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both? No :(
27. Own a webcam? yes
28. Ever get off the damn computer? yup
29. Sprechen sie deutsche? ehh?
30. Habla espanol? hmm?
31. Quack? if you say so

Have you / do you...
32. Stolen anything? a couple times
33. Smoke? once
44. Schizophrenic? huh
45. Obsessive? have been
46. Compulsive? have been
47. Obsessive compulsive? nah
48. Panic? yeah
49. Anxiety? not really
50. Depressed? yeah
51. Suicidal? no
52. Obsessed with hate? no.
53. Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, and gore? no
54. Dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them? no
55. If you could be anywhere, where would you want to be? not too sure
56. Who would you be with? MY DREAM GUY
57. What would you be doing? kissing or something to that effect
58. What are you listening to? dunno who it is
59. Can you do anything freakish with your body? no
60. Chicken or fish? both
62. Is ice cream the best thing in the world? NO!
A - Age: 20
B - Best Quality: ?? you tell me
C - Choice Of Meat: any
D - Dream Date: includes lots of cuddling
E - Exciting Adventure: ??
F - Favorite Food: potatoes or chinese
G - Greatest Accomplishment: have to think about that one
H - Happiest Day of Your Life: not sure either
I - Interests: dancing, food......
K - Kool-Aid: CHERRY
L - Love: i want some please
M - Most Valued Thing I Own: grandmas wedding ring
N - Name: Kristen Nicole Wallace
O - Outfit You Love: not sure
P - Pizza Toppings: pepperoni and bannana peppers
Q - Question Asked To You The Most: how tall are you?
S - Sport To Watch: basketball
T - Television Show: friends, er, real world
U - Ur Favorite Song: "differences" by genuwine
W - Winter: puke
Y - Year Born: 1981
Z - Zodiac Sign: Libra

knw10126@hotmail.com — Thu, 21 Mar 2002 04:10:02 GMT

Today I was in a really sad mood, and I don't even know why. And after being online tonight, I feel even worse. :'(

Kristen

=)

hey

:D

hmmmm

Ahh

*SCREAMS*

SCREAMS