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Wednesday, August 28th, 2002
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3:10 pm - =)
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well i have a new roommate living with me and my mom. its my best friend kim. i was so freakin' excited to have her move in because she lived somewhat far away, and i didn't get to see her all that much. now that she's here i'm not sure that i want her here! lol. we are both on the bossy side, and when two people are bossy they shouldn't be together all the time. she is only supposed to stay for about a month or month and a half because my sister and her kids are moving in to save money so they can move to TN. i'm not sure how i'm gonna tell kim that she has to move out when its time. she has her boyfriend here all the time, and so now its hard for me to lay around in my pj's and underwear, and i love doing that! lol. oh well, i just hope everything goes well and fast. i hope we're still friends after this!
current mood:  bored
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| Saturday, August 17th, 2002
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11:05 am - hey
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its been a long time since i've updated this thing. not too much has really been going on. just tryig to get thing together in my life, trying to stay off the net a little more and do "real" stuff whatever that really happens to be. i'm doing better i think, so its all good. its been a while since i've talked to anyone here, so i hope everyone is doing well. =) there's no new love in my life, just trying to stay single and do what i wanna do and see what happens i guess. that's all for now, just letting you now i'm still with the living! ;)
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| Saturday, July 6th, 2002
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4:20 pm
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I don't know what's been going on with me lately. I haven't really talked to anyone. I don't seem to talk to anyone online anymore except for family. I feel that if I tried to that I'd be imposing or something. No one seems to talk to me, so I don't wanna bother with anyone. I did talk to one of you that seemed to help me out a little bit, and that made me happy because I hadn't talked to them in a while. I just have felt really lonely more so now then any other time in my life. I feel like I am just in the way of everyone. I feel like I'm just trouble that people have to deal with and that it would be easier if I was out of the way. I dunno what to do sometimes. I just feel like crying half of the time. And I really do feel that things aren't gonna get any better. That's not really positive thinking and I know I should think positive.. but when nothing positive has happened in so long you kinda think that nothing is ever gonna get any better. I pray that it does though. Well, that's about it for now.
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| Saturday, June 29th, 2002
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10:42 pm
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Thank goodness for the internet. I rarely ever talked to my half brother because he lives in Idaho, and I've only met him 2 times. But since he has gotten the internet we have become a lot closer. Soon I believe we'll be calling each other. It seems so weird to have a brother. It used to be just me and my sister. Now, I just need my other half brother to start getting online more offen.. its an easy way to break the ice instead of the phone and not sure what to talk about and just listening to each other breathe, in which that's what normally happens when on the phone. Anyway, I just needed to get that out.
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| Wednesday, June 26th, 2002
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12:22 pm - :D
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I been away a while, but now I am back. Just was saying hello! :)
current mood: bored
current music: S I L E N C E
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| Friday, May 31st, 2002
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11:25 am - hmmmm
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I just go up, but I actully feel quite good today. I pray that it lasts all day and isn't just a little while thing.
current mood:  good
current music: Fabolous- "Can't Deny It" (er somethin like that)
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| Sunday, May 26th, 2002
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4:11 pm
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| Thursday, May 23rd, 2002
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8:02 pm
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| Wednesday, May 15th, 2002
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12:56 am
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12:52 am - Ahh
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Another day is over and it was a pretty damn good one :)
er.. well, now yesterday! :)~
current mood:  ecstatic
current music: Usher- "U Remind Me"
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| Monday, May 13th, 2002
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2:38 pm
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OMG.. My mom is gonna drive me insane!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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| Friday, May 10th, 2002
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5:10 pm
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| Wednesday, May 8th, 2002
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4:55 pm
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i dont even know where to begin. i so wish i could change places with any of you. i have it so hard. from what you know of me, youre probably thinking yeah right, but its true. i so wish i had your problems times 10.. rather then mine. and due to this reason, i dont go to school, nor am i able to work at the moment. i cant be a regular 20 year old like everyone else and it sucks. tis the reason i haven't met some of you. but, hopefully i will be able to sometime. its really hard for me to talk about this because i never talk about to anyone excepyt my closest friends at home and of course my family. i could hid this easily before, but up to about a year ago or so i couldnt anymore. sooner or later ill probably tell you what it is. but for now, i just want you to all know that you have no idea how good you have it. i would give anything to switch places with you. well anyways.. i just needed to get this out because i was tired of keeping it in. thats all for now. =o/
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| Monday, May 6th, 2002
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4:23 pm
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why do i have to be the type that cannot keep secrets to save my life?
i barely can keep my own. its so easy to get stuff out of me.
i have a couple, and i'm about to splurge 'em. :(
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| Tuesday, April 23rd, 2002
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2:36 pm
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Today is just a blah day. Haven't been able to talk to David for awhile. He's doing some kind of traing right now.. that sucks! :(
Anyways.. someone here is a lil pervie!! lmfao!!
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| Friday, April 19th, 2002
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11:53 am
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well i haven't written in my journal in a long time, i guess my life is just all blahh and not a bit interesting? anyways, i'm still talking to the army guy almost everyday. he tells me that he loves me and that he's serious, i dunno what i'm supposed to do. i'm half awake due to the fact i was on the phone with him till 3. bahh, oh well life goes on i suppose. :/
current mood:  blank
current music: Aaliyah- "More then a Woman" (i think)
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| Sunday, April 7th, 2002
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3:53 pm
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I been in a pretty good mood lately. I talked to David (the guy in the army) for a long time last night. I'm really starting to like him a lot. He told me that I was his girlfriend and that he loved me. He was just kidding around but it sounded pretty damn good to me! :) I am so undecided about what to do. I am considering to go for it since he's only about 5 hours away, and I could probably see him about every weekend. I dunno... we'll see.
It seems like I never talk to any of my friends on the net anymore. None of them seem to be on as much. I'm trying not to be. But I miss talking to everyone. There is a certain someone that I talked to a whole bunch, but hardly ever now. Ahh well.. as long as they are happy with what they're doing. :) Well that's about all I got fer now. . . .
current mood:  blah
current music: Destiny's Child- "Emotions"
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| Wednesday, April 3rd, 2002
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1:43 pm
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| Tuesday, April 2nd, 2002
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5:21 pm
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i don't know why i'm so sad today. i don't think i've ever cried this much in a long time. i can't stop. i don't know what's with me! i just feel so empty and useless. i feel like i have no one to talk to. my friends are never home or seem to busy to talk to me. i haven't talked to any of them in a few days. why do i have to be the way i am? why did god make ME this way? i wish i knew what my purpose was.. then maybe i'd have something to look forward to, or know i'm important for something. i layed in bed all day, and haven't even ate anything. i don't feel hungry. i just wanna lay and cry.
current mood:  depressed
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| Sunday, March 31st, 2002
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2:07 pm
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happy easter!!!
i am sitting here dreading to get ready. i hate getting ready, but i have to because my family will be here soon. think i should shave my head so it'd be easier!!
anyways... so there is this guy i have been talking to for a little bit now. :) though he is in the army, and i hate that. he's here for the long easter weekend, but then monday he goes back to kentucky where he's based at. i have known him for about a year, and we "talked" a little before he left, and i said that i didn't wanna make anything of it becasue he wouldn't be here. so i've seen him since he's been here and i am so loving the male attention.. i'm now thinkin that he's only in kentucky, and he can come home on weekends, and i can go there whenever i want. but still.. long distant crap usually never ever works. :( i've done it once, and it was pretty pointless to me. if i'm with someone.. i wanna be "with" them.. not far apart. i just can't do that. i dunno what the hell to do. i don't know how you people on here do it.. and you're a lot more far away, and see them less???
well.. there's mah entry!
current mood:  confused
current music: BUSTA!
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